christmas eve 2012

As the shopping is done , gifts are wrapped and waiting under our tree.. i sit back and realize how blessed I am . my family is amazing and im blessed to be apart of them and my friendships ! hope u spend the day with who u love. I hope u realize y u are able to love. And i hope u get something u love. eat something u love. hope the kids get what they love but hope they understand love is more important than material things . be blessed and love u all very much

as we go into the new year I want to thank those who had a impact on this past year 2012 thanks to those reading this, those who follow me, those who befriended me , to the new friends , and to the old, to family, to pets u made my year a better year thanks for spending it with me ... billions of people in this world and u chose me as a friend im blessed and thankful ! heres to another year of friendship as we head into 2013 thanks for the memories ! many more to come !


xoxoamandakisses 

christmas meaning .. or lost ?

I have always been a HUGE fan of holidays .. im not going to lie i love to shop , love to cook , and get together with the ones who u care about ! its just fun ! but i also at the same time honestly find it disturbing ( and not all will agree with me i know this ) but here are my thoughts on this topic ... i grew up religious ( my nan and pap where my dad was not ) so i got both sides of their beliefs, myself i think of myself as a educated person and research everything with this being said i am religious and carry that through my lifestyle daily ... some do not this is fine that is freedom of choice but i have never been a huge fan of SANTA in my house and with me having 2 kids its hard cause he is everywhere schools, malls , tv ect ... the real meaning to me is jesus birthday .. u don't see this much anymore it seems jesus has been taken over by santa but santa is a fakeiscious character ...? are they somehow implying jesus is as well ? was santa made up for our youth to get blinded and forget or mislead y we really have the holiday ? maybe its just how i think and i post my thoughts a lot on my personal Facebook but i try to keep it out of my "public" view just for simple reason that there are SOO many views just in general in life no one will ever have 100% answer to anything life is all a matter of opinion but i would ask each of u to really think about y our religious holidays are being taken over by santa and the easter bunny ! don't get me wrong it is sooo fun magical for kids to get excited and have fun over the holiday but my kids are under the understanding that its for fun like a game but the real reason is and always will be god and jesus ! if u are religious u know how they say some things are satan creations .. there is evil in this world but santa ? .. where would i think of this idea ..? he wears red , he comes down a fire chimney, he knows if u are good or bad all year long and has a list ? was this made up to mock religious followers or is it a act of satan ? this is a thought only u can answer just how i looked at it do i tell my kids these thoughts on santa absolutely not right now but will i educate them later as they grow up ? yes i will ! i just dont want to see the true meaning disappear and i slowly see this happen year by year .... if is fun to shop and buy for others to surprise them excite them and have fun but should u lie ? that choice is urs .. have fun buy gifts eat food and live ur life but be thankful for the life u where given whatever ur religious or non religious thoughts are but keep in mind some things will be blinded in a public eye they will advertise what makes money and kids make them a ton of money dont let them get their soul as well as ur pocket be blessed just a blog post for some thought take it how u want either way how u celebrate have a blessed holiday i am thankful for each one of u ! <3 much="much" nbsp="nbsp" p="p" u="u" very="very">

what is the world coming to ?

i am sickened by the horrid things happening all around the world lately ( not just today ) but wow going into a kids school is sick minded and truly a shame my blessings are with everyone world wide who lost or has to live with the change of a loved one gone i know it is hard .. but in a time of panic i would like you to please keep this in mind .... my nan and my pap where my rock in my life biggest support system i had ! and here is some of our life story ... my nan watched her  daughter ( who would be my moms sister ) was 17 she was shot in front of my nan  my aunt had passed away long before i met her and growing up they would talk of her but never much on what happened .. my pap was a avid gun lover ( noooo it was not anything to do with their guns ) he taught me safety and from that day on i am sure it was for more of safety !!! bad things happen to good people its a sick world we sadly will always have people who kill however , guns , beatings , drugs, car wrecks ect list goes on and on ... u cant be shielded from reality nothing in this wide world will make u safe my pap always told me the only thing worst than a bad guy with a gun is a good guy without a gun ... people are unstable u cant change that but u can protect urself ! u have to what if it didn't happen at a school what if they came to ur house what would u do run for the phone ? what if they cut the phone lines ? i was raised around guns my mom and dad had gun shops all over the world they where in all kinds of magazines .. i seen a lot of people saying we need stricter gun laws ... criminals do not follow laws ! period .......... drugs guns prostitutes ect whatever they don't do it before saying and going with the media saying yes lets take guns keep in mind and look at the stats .... all these shootings do u think they where registered gun owners ?... have u ever heard of a massacre at a gun show ????..... with thousands and thousands of guns wake up people the only thing that would make this heart breaking situation worst is the good people without guns sometimes cops cant make it to u in time i know this for a fact i lost someone by a gun accident i would never say take them away and neither would anyone in my family just keep in mind if they cant kill u with a gun it will be a knife , fork , fist , rock ,  rape, anything .... reality of it is education raise kids right and teach morals if they are unstable we need to medicate them be blessed from my family incident  to urs be blessed ur only responsible for ur own actions live life the best u can and the happiest ! things like this have always happened we have the privilege to hear about it more because of the internet ! stay alert and stay blessed sorry for anyones loss also keep in mind i never NOT once heard my nan or pap put the blame on anyone !! they always told me never hold grudges that is for god to judge and sometimes good people get hurt... be blessed and in my thoughts 

sometimes the truth can be misleading ...

wondering how some of u come into the grasp of what u think "truth"is ?.... like who do u rely on to give u the truth ..Ah the truth... where are you? Why are you so shy? Why are you so hard to find? Where to put your trust on? Who to trust? Is it even possible? Do you really believe is still possible to know THE truth with all the greed and self centered people or are we slowly watching our morals and future generations to be destroyed or was the truth ever around to begin with ;) just my thoughts but maybe some of u can relate to me ?.... have u ever been lied to by someone u love ?... a boyfriend a best friend a parent ?... if someone can lie to u that should know u better than anyone y would u put all ur trust in the "real media" world with one group of people who are all owned by the same people u don't think they will lie to u ?... not just the media with everything sometimes the truth is stranger than fiction u have all the information u need at ur fingertips right now research it from all angles and make up ur own truth .... cause in the end life is all a matter of opinion make wise choices but better yet make sure they are educated choices not everyone will agree with u on everything that is fine just make sure u researched it where u are happy to say what u believe in .. i see so many uneducated on one extreme to another and who will stand up and say what they believe but yet not knowing the basic facts ... sad world we live in don't get blinded get educated ! and dont take anyones beliefs and think they are so wrong and there is ONLY one way to think this is not true we are all aloud to have our own outlooks on life but take others thoughts into mind as well never be close minded u never know ... and always show love not hate  <3 lots="lots" love="love" nbsp="nbsp" of="of" span="span" xoxoamandakisses="xoxoamandakisses">

a house update ....

 here is my makeup and craft room started putting some things up on the walls .. first nails into a new house is pretty intense lol or so my husband thought :) i hang everything ....

 my craft mess set up so far still need my dest and wanting new makeup holders to match so its coming along the color is so bright u almost need sunglasses when walking in lol and im not sure how good of a filming room this will be for my youtube videos cause it gives off a really weird color on camera we will see what i can do tho !

well we have been building this house for years ! hahaha but its slowly looking like a house !! yay ! my husband has built this house from the ground up ! just out of money as we had it so y it is taking it seems forever ! but will be so worth it in the end no rush and being able to do it all how we want it has been fun ! me and jay put the floor in the kitchen last month just me and him and wow it wasnt easy im not going to lie ! it is vinyl floor and it locks together and is like a floating floor so u just lock it together and that is it sounds easy enough right ?... we would get in about 9 boards then one would pop out and we would have to start all over again we started this floor at 9am and got done with it at 8pm no breaks just kept going it was at times frustrating but we got it !!!!! we added our curio cabinet and table in there as well just to see what it looks like ! and i really need to go do some curtain shopping <3 a="a" all="all" amazing="amazing" and="and" appliances="appliances" as="as" at="at" black="black" but="but" buy="buy" cabinets="cabinets" countertop="countertop" decorated="decorated" does="does" floor="floor" gray="gray" here="here" hoping="hoping" house="house" i="i" is="is" it="it" look="look" looking="looking" my="my" nbsp="nbsp" need="need" not="not" ok="ok" our="our" p="p" pink="pink" print="print" sits="sits" slowly="slowly" so="so" some="some" still="still" the="the" think="think" to="to" was="was" we="we" white="white" whole="whole" with="with" woodish="woodish" would="would" zebra="zebra">

 first time sweeping prob the only time i will get into this hahahaha

 final project ! think this is a filter from instagram

for the support ...

as another year adds on ... and another year wiser, you cant help but stop and look back and wonder y the time seems to go by so fast ... mins into hours into days into months then into years ... never let any small time slip away enjoy every little part good and bad because someday we will look back and it will all be a faint memory the only thing that lasts with us to the end is our morals, memories and heart so follow it... so many of you have messaged me saying happy birthday.. and im so grateful ! thanks for the support not just today everyday someone always asks wow how can you open up so much of your life and put it online .. i had to think about it strangely for a sec because i have been online for so many years i couldn't imagine life without friends all over the world and to me i enjoy it and feel grateful ! we may not all have the same interests or style but either way whatever video, tweet, or fb post  u seen to get u to start to watch my videos and in somehow be interested enough to get to know me and my family .. thank you ! this goes to show in the world there is too much judgement we all can relate in someway somehow no matter what language u speak no matter where in the world u live and no matter if we look different or not when u start looking around we are all more alike than some of us would like to admit (: either way just wanted to say thanks for taking the time out to tell me happy birthday and taking the time to read this and as always be blessed

xoxoamandakisses 

the ONLY man in my life who i 100% trust and who has been there for me a lifetime .. such a positive influence, amazing inspiration, taught me about life, morals and not to judge, and i watched them in love for a lifetime and it always gave me hope that true love is possible ...i will always be thankful for having this positive influence in my life and it will always bring a smile to my face along

 with wisdom i couldn't wish a better person a happy birthday even tho he will never see this post .. today is my paps birthday and i am so thankful for him and his views , thankful for how i was raised and i think he did amazing job ! our birthdays are a day apart we have always close he has lived his life the most honest, loving way i know and for this is y i have always looked up to him for he has had a influence on me, my kids and had a influence on anyone who has ever met him ... i know my nan is looking down wishing she could have just one more birthday with us but she will always be a part of our life and our choices so heres to my pap ! happy 85th birthday ♥ you !!!

a friend in a weird situation

well i ran into giant eagle today .. just to grab some things for a cookout , i was looking at lettus when this woman  ( maybe mid 70s) came up to me and started rubbing my arm asking if it hurt lol noticing it was my tattoos she was talking about, i said well not as bad as u would think depends on where u getting it .. she told me she always wanted a peppy le pue ( skunk ) tattoo but she is too old now i said nahhh just go get it (; she leaned in and said my husband would kick my ass and whispered this haaaaa i said awe must be a man thing that is what my husband tells me every time i come home from getting one . she left smiling i ran back into her few isles down she was looking at a box of crackers real confused, she said to me my husband went all these years not diabetic but now he is .. i said well i have this app on my phone might be easier ( foodacate ) it gives u a grade a-d she was impressed and said well ill just walk with you the rest of way through u seem to be helpful (: i didn't mind she was a bit slower but nice to talk to.. i gave her some coupons for items she had in her cart and told her they doubled up to a dollar. we got to talking and in the back of my mind she just put me so much in mind of my nan , from how she treated others, how she talked about her husband , to somewhat how she looked.. idk didn't think too much about it after we checked out she walked to my car as she was parked just a few cars up from mine and said can i ask you a question i said sure .. she said can i have ur number and maybe when u go shopping again i can tag along u helped and saved me alot i said sure . as she got out her pencil and paper out to write down my number (: i said here i have a ton of extra shampoo and conditioner i got free today .. she was impressed how do u get it for free ? just said coupons and matching up sale items its hard to explain ill teach u though haha she was so grateful and would have thought i gave her 1,000 dollars she hugged me and walked away saying ill call u ... then she turned around and said i dont think i introduced myself im sorry hugged me again as she was hugging me said my name is Margaret ..... i must have had a weird look on my face she said what i said nothing (: call when u want to go im always around as long as my kids are in school.. then when she pulled out i seen her pull over to this woman and her young kids ( the mom was holding a sign saying my family needs help waiting for goververment help ) then as i was thinking she was giving her some change ( as i did when i pulled into giant eagle ) as i finished loading my things and putting my cart away i pulled out by the family in need and noticed the woman i gave the shampoo and conditioner to had given it to her goes to show do good for others sometimes they will pass on that favor !

this touched me more than one ways for the reason right off the start how this woman was talking to me ect put me in mind of my nan when she left and told me her name Margaret i got a little weird just because that was my nans name as well !!!! everything  must happen for a reason

treat others the way u want to be treated and goes to show never judge by tattoos, age, skin color whatever 

how do u know me ?

me and jay just told this story .. thought i would share <3 br="br" nbsp="nbsp"> years and years ago before we ever met i use to work at this advertising paper where i would go around and pick up ads within 100 mile radius .. jay had a car bussiness with his friend altho i never stopped there he somehow knew me ... this is how news travels

i have always dressed a bit off (; ( so some would say ) and i have tattoos and wear a lot of jewelry well this older man ( late 60s) had a carpet business i always liked going there he was very nice but he never knew my name he would always call me the gypsy i thought it was just his thing between me and him but how news travels he must have talked of me often ! somehow ppl 100 miles away new me as gypsy well my friend went to the bar one night she said she had someone she wanted me to meet ... this person was jay he looked at me ( never seeing me before ) and said omg u r the gypsy ... i smiled and said how did u know this ? i guess this older man new some of jays friends and always would mention me (: me and jay have been together ever since that night at the bar ... but 2 years after we started dating and him selling the car lot i found out that he bought my car i drove for the advertising business (:  years before we met (: was it fate ? im thankful for my husband and just love this story had to share <3 nbsp="nbsp">

u know that game where it gives u money ... aka atm LOL

Aspin says he needs money I said for what he said iPhone I said U have the ipod I don't have money for another one lol he said play that game that gives u money (aka ATM ) o right I said its called the game of life and me just wondering what goes through a 5 yr olds mind I ask how do u win he said guess the numbers right ahahahaha ♥