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Thursday, December 30, 2010

new start

One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure its worth watching. That's the risk you take if you change the people you were once involved with won't like the new you because they are no longer involved or you bettered your choices But new people and better choices will come along and they will be thankful for the change ppl at the bottome never want u to realize u can do better or always try to bring u down change sometimes is hard for todays but ends up most likley in better tomorrows

Friday, December 24, 2010


trust ur instinct if it ends up being a mistake better off being urs rather than someone else don't let others affect r choices in life cause in the end they don't care not their life and u suffer from bad choices

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

simple thoughts for today

Act as though you cannot fail but keep a humble spirit Whoever gossips to you will gossip about you What you don't see with your eyes, don't witness with your mouth Swapping lies rots your sole and is a waste of time no need to bother and i really could careless if my name is involved im walking away not saying a word ... with a smile simple minded ppl never get far(;
You can't expect to prevent negative feelings altogether. And you can't expect to experience positive feelings all the time. allow life to direct u to acknowledge ur feelings but also to refuse to get stuck in the negative ones. Hatred is the coward's revenge for being intimidated
its never too late to become what u may have became never give up ur hopes and dreams

Thursday, November 25, 2010

be thankful

happy thanksgiving be blessed for everything you have ! the people who you have in your life im sure are amazing and thanks for being a part of mine.. be thankful for todays tomorrows and yesterdays! be thankful for the turkeys that gave their lives for us today (; and never take ne thing for granted u should be thankful for life everyday just not today ! be blessed and be safe ! if you go black friday shopping be careful ill be out in the maddness too and i kno some can be crazy ! have great holiday seasons

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

car accident 11 22 10

I have said this before but didnt fully realize it until then life can be taken at a blink of a eye, we all sooner or later will face it, weather it is a loss of a friend or a accident my day was 11 22 10 and i was thankfully driving my explorer rather than my vw bug. me Kaitylnn and my 2 sons were in the back we were on our way home from my nans and helping a friend move.. They always say accidents happen close to home, well we were almost home I had just got off the exit and was on the highway I was in the slow lane and a car ahead of me and a car slowly passing me i was just picking up speed maybe 45 50 and the car ahead slamed on his breaks.. I couldnt get around as a car beside me I locked my breaks and as it seemed like it went so slow I knew we were not going to stop in time.. I looked at kaitylnn as her head was down and she was texting I threw my arm out and hit her in the nose but i braced her ( as i didnt want the airbag to come out and hit her as she was sitting or i didnt want her to go through the windsheild ) we hit the car and both airbags came out.. I looked at kaitylnn as she said she was bleeding I seen it was out of her nose and knew we needed out as the car was sizling i wasnt sure if it would catch fire my door was jamed and i remember kicking the shit out of it with flip flops on i got it open got everyone out. turned the car off and told them all to get away from it as i was on the highway and it was pitch black ! the car that was passing me was nice enough to pull over and help. as the car i hit kept going down the road ? finally after a mile he stopped and pulled over i called 911 and they took forever i ended up calling 4 times when the amblance finally got there they got stucking trying to cross the highway in the grass i seen kaitylnn had a mark that was bleeding on her forehead and her nose had stopped bleeding at this time thankfully my 2 boys were fine and Im sure we had a angel looking after us ! altho I wish it was me that had to get the stiches i am thankful that is all that was wrong ! I was happy with the way i handled it as it was the first accident i had driving. my husband met us there kids checked out fine and i went with kaitylnn to the hospital just to ride with her I was not seen and somehow i walked out just real sore ! kaitylnn said she had no pain as she didnt see it happen i think may be y i was braced because i knew what was going to happen . she had got 10 stiches and the lady that had given them to her was a student and she was a little unsure and took forever but im thankful it went all smooth ! sorry kaitylnn you got hurt but we are always together it seems when something happens or holiday ! so im glad it was with me (: my explorer is totaled and sadly my friend was spost to buy it and she was so excited sorry jada ha ! but I belive everything happens for a reason and you may not kno the reason as it happens but Im hoping this in a sad way will make kaitlynn a better driver as she just started to drive and makes us all realize how your life could be taken away at any given time ! be thankful for who you have in your life and handle every sisuation you are handed with the best you can good or bad it will be okay im sure in the end ! be blessed and be thankful take care ! thanks for the cares and prayers ! xoxo

Wednesday, November 17, 2010


protecting my pride and starting new changes and im sorry for those not involved nothing against you i just thought about it and u have to pick the best ppl and right now ur not on the side i want to support me .. best of luck tho !

Tuesday, November 16, 2010


keep reaching youll reach one day nothing is impossible its long road ne thing worth something always starts at a distance u have to slowly work towards it give it all if you really want something dont hold back if you fail dont make you a fool you just keep growing make something of yourself life is a struggle but when its hard to smile remember its all worth the while !
follow ur heart only thing in life that last to the end ur mind with age slowly goes.

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

simple minded ppl

you cant go through life close minded , times change ppl change and sisuations change u have to adapt to it. only thing constiant in life is change and if u are not ready and mental able to adapt to it you will not get far in life, you have to hope for the best but realize u do fall short most of the time. but it is how u handle what comes to you that makes u a stronger person, if something happens that is not positive just dont sit and think about it handle it look and it and then walk away... people that sit and dwell on something negitive will more than likely go back to something negitive .. y its because u get use to it and lower ur standards this happens alot not a bad thing but if u get into routine of doing something no matter what it is its harder to break the habbit. and for people who judge.. when u talk shit about someone ( and most the time ppl like this will do it behind ur back because they are week in person but strong when not confrounted ) it does have weekness in a person but realize its not the person u are talking about its YOU weekness is not being able to point out ur mistakes but quick to point out others ~ we all make mistakes say something at the wrong time or meet the wrong ppl doesnt make us bad just a learning experience were the strengh comes into play , and were others get divided is who can realize its the wrong choice or just go along with it cause everyone else does. be a leader for urself not for others to follow but for example for others who look up to. and remember beauty is within looks fade and in the end all we have is our thoughts to get us ne where and really what ppl will remind u for not because of what u wear or look like be open minded but not too open minded everyone knows what u are thinking. and u dont have to have the last word to make a lasting impression sometimes a quite mind will get more reaction than a line of shit be true to urself be blessed amanda

impact on every little thing u do

The world is a dangerous place. Not because of the people who are evil; but because of the people who don't do anything about it. have a voice speak out no matter who has ur back it takes one person for a leader and ur the leader in your own life have good morals and good people will follow leave the ppl against u behind and dont look back they are not worth ur time ne way ! have a voice and a opion if not u will not get far in life and bad ppl feed and rely on week ppl dont get caught on the bottom we r working our way to the top (;

holidays ?

I LOVE THE HOLIDAYS but I also get worried that we are not understanding y we have them.. Im not going to get involved with religious views but I do think it is important that we do understand and are thankful for y we are here were we r going and thank god for the family and friends we will spend the holidays with ! This holiday will be hard on me as my friends are few ( by choice ) I have lost my best friend last year few days before christmas I took and still to this day take it hard but i look up and realize I couldnt have a better angel on my side looking down. Holidays are ment to realize y we are here and thank for the ppl we let into our life. As i have kids I kno they look forward to the gifts and food but as I look around I see alot fed into the hype and forget the meaning dont fall into that group not a good place to be ! try to help out its nice to get gifts but think about the ppl who cant have food or wont get ne gifts or live on the streets and have no family or a warm place to stay.. donate even if its only a dollar u can if we all did this we could try to help out buy a gift for toys for tots, see if ur church does dinners or help out with ur time, help a neighbor , helps others who are having a hard time helping themselves. not because u want that reconizition either I hate ppl who help with time or money then want thanks for doing it do it and dont tell ne one. the only one who needs to kno how you are helping out is god. u will get the true meaning of ppl when u help someone out in need and they dont kno it to help someone out and not just around holidays but daily idc if its smiling at a stranger or holding a door even if no words are said you never kno how u have a impact on a person but it could change how they feel or way they look at ppl for a lifetime they could talk about something u have done or how u helped out years down the road and when u meet someone u dont kno who they are but u r meeting them for a reason make a good impression cause u never kno how long they will b in ur life. a little thought goes a long way, teach ur kids the meaning of life but make sure they realize the difference in saying it or meaning it ! ne one can say ne thing takes a good person to prove it. and if you are going through a hard time i kno its hard i have been there but no matter how hard please try to realize no matter how bad u have it someone out there has it worst, be thankful for ur health ur family ur friends. make new friends help someone out or feed a animal small things are the most meaningful and will get u far in life and if someone is bringing u down or not supporting ur dissions slowly cut ur ways u want to surrund urself with positive good ppl if not u will get slowly sucked down to their level. dont be greedy and unthankful. its never too late to change ur way and outlook on life and if you are out there and are having it hard keep ur head up there are ppl who care be blessed and come on lets open our eyes hold hands and try to make a difference or a impact on someones life have great holidays ! xoxo amanda


sometimes you have control other times you leave ur heart and feelings in someone elses hands, this we cant stop as love is blind. you cant help it you got hurt but you are in control of who you will open up to for you to be able to get hurt.. love sometimes fades, sometimes it is because of our actions or theirs, or others its just maybe gods way of saying its time for a change you cant sit a dwell on the bad times if something is not working out the way it would in your dreams sadly its time to let go life is so short we wont make it out alive and y life your life not to the happest? as things start to change you will realize the true color of ppl the ones who will stand by your side ( verry few ) and the ones who just slowly turn away and the ones you have to watch out for are the ones who turn their back.. this is sad that some will step in when it has nothing to do with them. alot do this because they hate they dont kno what is going on or have control ne more.. walk away peaceful harmful hate words wont get u far and the ppl who are causeing a big deal are just drama and are looking for a reason to hate u. sometimes things dont work out the way we planned thats just life . i always say everything happens for a reason and if you made it today and look bk thats y the ppl from ur past are not in todays... i strongly belive that god gives us ppl and things we need in life to grow learn and how to handle hard times never make enemies on the way just look at it as a learning experience u never want to look bk and have regrets.. just smile to get u through and u will make it to tomorrow dont plan too far ahead u cant see there yet and dont look back ull loose ur way to were u are going and if u cant see close ur eyes the best things that we do is with our eyes shut thats y we close our eyes when we kiss pray dream. be thankful for who god places in ur life and love every momment because u dont kno how long they will be in your life and when its time to part ways do it in a mannor that u are thankful and no hard feelings smile and be thankful for the good times this will make it easier to move on ! life changes only thing i can gaurentee u but i kno that better days will come always does ! watch who u open up to alot of ppl like to add to a story to make it sound better and if their name isnt involed in the problem my advice is not to get them involved... be strong and never change for ne one other than yourself if you are making yourself and kids happy thats all that matters u will never please others just make sure u are happy with ur life choices and ur not hurting ne one on the way.. be thankful and be blessed


All my life I believed I knew something. But then one strange day came when I realized that eberything I knew ment nothing,, and things changed in a blink of a eye . And so words became void of meaning. I have arrived too the ultimate uncertainty

That's the risk you take if you change: that people you've been involved with won't like the new you, because they are not involved ne more but dont let someone change ur mind the new ppl u meet will be thankful for the change cant make everyone happy on the way ..

to love is to admire with the heart to admire is to love with the mind

happy moment? praise God. Difficult moment? Seek God. Quite moment? worship God Painful moment? trust God but every moment be thankful..

sometimes in life no matter how hard u try you will end up still failing not because it was all your fault just because u are only responsible for your own actions and if ppl work against u nothing good will come out of it !

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.Do not follow where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail, with patience to achieve it

Hope is not a dream but a way of making dreams become reality. Choices are the hinges of destiny

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts

I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. but in the end im still the author

Tell yourself that you are a great individual & believe in yourself. if you don't believe in yourself, will be hard for others to believe in you. You can make your life anything you wish.....Create your own life & then go out & live it with absolutely NO REGRETS. Most importantly, if you love someone tell him or her, ...for you NEVER know what tomorrow may have in store.lesson in life each day you live.

Make everyday count. Appreciate every moment & take from those moments everything you could possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before & actually listen...

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love & how to open your heart & eyes to things.

sometime things will happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, & unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming these obstacles that you would have never realized. The people that you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who yo...u will become Even the bad experiences are learned from. In fact, they are the most poignant ones.
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Sometimes people come into your life & you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or help you figure out who you are & or who you want to become You never know who these people may be but when you lock eyes with them, you know at the very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

sometimes in life no matter how hard u try you will end up still failing not because it was all your fault just because u are only responsible for your own actions and if ppl work against u nothing good will come out of it !

are like stained-glass windows.
They sparkle and shine when the sun is out,
but when the darkness sets in,
their true beauty is revealed

ONLINE stalker" - Now that's just LAZINESS! Whatever happened to the good ole days when they actually followed you around on foot? EXERCISE people

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure its worth watching

in some ppls eyes you may not be perfect but what you do is the way we build our own self esteeme so as long as you comply with your own standards you shouldnt have any other aprovl needed other than follow faith and keep god with in grasp xoxo

one day at a time

as i grow older and look back on my choices and path i have chose i have picked up on a few mistakes but would never regret them .. im sure i will have many more changes to my life as i am going through some now but never regret for that is how u got to today and with life lessons you should always be thankful for experience and not just take ur own mistakes and make a better life for you but also educate others so they dont go down the wrong path you had once walked on life is to short to be turned around looking back all the time look ahead be open to new pppl with open arms and those who you choose will have a large impact on the person you are so choose wisely the old saying history repeats itself is kindof true so follow good and good things will follow keep faith on ur mind but also have fun going through life its your life no one will live it for you and i dont kno ne one who has made it out alive so laugh too much and best advice i can give is be friendly to everyone but open up to few as i have realized sad but true the more ppl who kno things the more things that will get added to it so keep friends at many but trust few keep a open mind but hope for the best but expect the worst life if full of disapointment but its how u handle it that counts we are only responisible for our own responsibilities be blessed xoxox amanda

inspire daily

success is not final failure is not fatal its the courage that continues that counts in the end never giving up

courage is the discovery that you may not win and trying when u kno u could loose weakness of attitude causes weakness of character

To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream. not only plan, but also believe

just because some say its the wrong choice keep in mind few ppl want u happy end result maybe they are worried u may b happier than them

its to late to look back and too far ahead to see but but with my arms wide open hoping u will guide me the future is unkno but u can make it what u want, what are u going to be? faith in my eyes hoping its not a dream

Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about. Just because it's not what you were expecting, doesn't mean it's not everything you've been waiting for...

Your talent is Gods gift to you, what you do with it is your gift back to God!

someone once asked me what i wanted to be in my life I told her I wanted to be happy. She told me I was missing the whole point of the question. I told her she was missing the whole point of life There are no shortcuts to any place worth going Love is Rare, Life is Strange--Nothing Lasts And People Change

There are people in life you learn to live with, there are people you know you can't live without, and then there are people you know life wouldn't be the same without. someday everything will all make perfect sense. so for now, laugh at confusion, smile through the tears, and keep reminding yourself that everything happens for a reason

sometimes in life no matter how hard u try you will end up still failing not because it was all your fault just because u are only responsible for your own actions and if ppl work against u nothing good will come out of it !

Promises mean everything, but after they are broken, sorry means nothing Knowledge speaks, but wisdom listens and you should always Appear weak when you are strong, and strong when you are weak

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control but The worst feeling you'll ever feel is sitting next to the person who means the world to you knowing that you mean nothing to them Nobody is worth your tears, and the one who is won't make you cry

Sometimes you have to smile...
Pretend everything's okay.
Hold back the tears,
And just walk away

Look for opportunities. ..not guarantees Dreaming of the person you want to be is wasting the person you already are

my random thoughts....

shame how some care only about themselves and forget others have feelings open up ur eyes some things slip away faster than the eye can see ...

dont kno what u have till its gone? absents makes the heart grow fonder ...

some just will let u down .. sad and disappointment runs through ur mind but u have to catch ur self and realize it was passed ur control

ull realize who ur true friends are throughout time.. good luck im sure u will be only able to count them on one hand

I will prepare and some day my chance will come, its when u start to loose faith that ur dreams slip away..

If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change the way you think about it

Love is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end.

its hard to tell someone u will walk away if that means its going to better their life choices but deep down hoping they will follow in ur footsteps if u go ur own way in the end the ppl who r ment to be there will get there maybe they will just take the long way dreams always end with the ones u love in them

small things always stand out in the end and the thoughtfulness that really make u smile

wondering were to go? close ur eyes, best things happen to those who are not looking for them have faith and put trust in gods hands

Hope is not the conviction that something will turn out well but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out, Hope is not a dream but a way of making dreams become reality

Experience is the name every one gives to their mistakes.

Life is full of beauty, but not getting sucked into thinking beauty is life complete difference looks are not everything because it fades and end ull only have the inner beauty.. if u r one to worry about looks ull look back and regret the more important things u missed out on

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending live like today is the first day of the rest of ur life

listen to what ppl tell u but Hear the meaning within the words

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.Do not follow where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail, with patience to achieve it

Hope is not a dream but a way of making dreams become reality. Choices are the hinges of destiny

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts.

Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about the things that matter dont fall into a rut just because u can deal with it step out and take a leap of faith life is better happy and exciting rather than just here and boring ! too short to wonder if u are making a regret

the way some ppl think just amazes me ! thoughtful and kindhearted will get u far

only thing consistent in life is change handle each choice wisely, today is the first day of the rest of ur life

wise ppl can walk away in silence the power of ur mind is the strongest weapon god gave us

to love is to admire with the heart to admire is to love with the mind

happy moment? praise God. Difficult moment? Seek God. Quite moment? worship God Painful moment? trust God but every moment be thankful..

life is 10 percent what happens and 90 percent how u react to it ...

success is not final failure is not fatal its the courage that continues that counts in the end never giving up

Friday, May 28, 2010

just me standing my ground a little bit (:

as i kno there will always be drama someone hating because they dont have what others do and someone always trying to bring you down to their shit level ! this is just life and is all normal we all are jelouse of someone and no matter how nice of a person you are or how good you try to be in life you will always find someone who knows this and tries to stop it before it happens these are haters in no way will i lower my standards and go to their level but the thing i will do is try and understand where some ppl like this come from how they were raised what they do in real life and if they really do love themselves? god gave us life we should be thankful ! our looks may not be perfect or nose like some say is to big or i may look like a guy like really ? i have said this many of times i will say it again LOOKS FADE the older you get and in the end when u are a lonley old lady/guy and have no one cause u talked shit on ppls looks and never et them in for who they where u will look back and realize all u have left are memories ! my nan always taught me if u never have ne thing nice to say dont say it at all or never say ne thing negitive u wouldnt want to hear about you ! i took this advice with pride and felt i always lived up to my standards ! im thankful for my big nose and will rock it out with big shades ! i do shop alot but helloooo if u see or watch my hauls im a cheap clearance shopper my kids are well taken care of and i dont think i need parent 101 with nutcases online ( some not all ) where do i get all my money lol or am i trailer trash ha this just blows my mind really does you shouldnt judge ne one other than the personality and if you dont like someone for who they are NOT looks the true person they are then cut ties and forget dont dwell on someone u dispise so bad cause ill look at it as u are a jelouse hater lol i would never take my time up with something or someone i hate i just forget ! and remember there is always 2 sides to a story ~ even if u think u kno all you are prob more than likely left in the dark ~! so my advice !!! is love yourself for who you are ! be thankful for what you have alot not alot whatever we all work our ass off to get where we are today to the young ones >>> dont let ne one tell u that u cant do something u have ur whole life in frount of u take advantage of it ! and always remember u have more ppl who love u than hate u ! and 90% of the time the ones who hate u are the biggest ppl jelouse of what u do and just cant handle life ! and if someone is going to hate you for just what you look at really its not worth ur time worry about u and others from the inside out and then looks dont get me wrong looks fashion and all is fun but shouldnt be the only main focus ! if your a good person inside it will be more reconizable to others and will stay with you a life time rather than being hot now will fade as age catches up with you imbrase yourself and god bless !


Thursday, May 13, 2010

my true reality

sometimes when you are not paying attention life goes so fast you look back and wonder where the time went sometimes when you are not having a good day life can go so slow and you wish it would hurry up sometimes you could sleep away your problems sometimes you hate the world sometimes it seems like you kno more assholes than true friends have you thought any of this ? look back at what you just read and think of what a waste of time it was ! (;just remember in life we are only in control of our own actions and as long as you are happy with the outcome it shouldnt matter ! love every min you have the good and bad look at the bad as a learning experience because if you dont it will eat u up inside ! forget others who look down on you they are just having life problems of their own so try to lower you down to their level.. people have to change for them so only worry about you and your close loved ones ! dont focus on negitive comments only the good ones build u not break it down be yourself and true to others and good will follow ! and sadly our true friends will only be on one hand but the ones you do find hold onto them makes a life long friendship no one can break down dont judge someone or not give someone a chance because of what they look like all this is nice but worry about the person inside some dont have money to back up what a good person they are others have to much money they just get sucked into material things.. sad part is everything can be taken away as fast as you got it .... and in the end looks fade and all youll have to look back on is memories we all grow old the only thing in the end that will separate us is our outlook on life and our life expereiences never have ne regrets we all make mistakes but when we look back even if it is not funny then it will bring a smile to our face someday trust be have a good outlook on life animals and people and be blessed