what happens when someone who raised you , and you learned everything from .. slowly turns to you for help ?... i have said this many times before but how life works .. my mom has been sick a long time she was a achololic for many many years most my times i have with her she had a beer in her hand ... i never held this against her , tried to change it , but accept it she had went through alot of hard times in her life and as i still look back on it now im thankful that is all she turned to . she either way has always been there.. and could handle her booze you would never know she was drunk by actions , only if you smelled it ... to this day i am not a drinker i had to help my mom get through alot and becoming clean was one thing added to my list (: she had a ulcer in her stomach that exploded and was really bad ! lifeflighted and alot of blood transfusions ... she cleaned up and im so proud ... after being clean for years i wanted her to be happy , she is a beautiful women inside and out , but with age as looks fade , she slowly lost her hair ... then she lost almost all of it , my mom is very stuborn ~ she doesnt like going to the dr unless she has to finally she just started going ( i think she was scared of what she would hear ) sometimes the unknown is always the most scary ... thankfully this passed weeks she found out it was her thyroid ... as she is only 100 lbs .. she got sick and just wasnt hungry , all she wanted to do was sleep .. richard ( my moms husband ) panicked and took her to er cause her symptoms were the same as years ago when she had the bleeding ulcer ... but just her thryroid they put her on meds and she seems to be slowly turning around for the better .... sometimes i just feel so bad for my mom ( she worries alot and is like me in many ways ) she gets embarrassed to go out with no hair wears hats and just can tell its not my moms outgoing personality she would normally have ... she is a great person and i hope she can look in the mirror and understand this ..... and to these type of people who judge right off the start without knowing a person weather its on a persons looks , actions or habbits or lifestyle dont look down on them ..... for every action there is a reaction ..... everyone life is different we deal with different things we all are not perfect ... but pick the good things out im sure there is many more good things about a person than negative ... and after weighing out ur options after getting to know a person not by just looks then if its more negative than positive y waste ur time ? you can only give advice and try to help so much until u get pushed away trust me !!! there comes a time where u grow to accept the person for who they are ( not agree but accept ) learn to short differences and still have a great time live ur life but let the loved ones u are there if they need u ! it all works out in the end sometimes its the words never said that mean the most or made the most changes in the silent of life ....... everything happens for a reason no matter what that reason is ..... mistakes are life lessons no sense in regretting them it wont get u ne where look back smile and move forward more educated be blessed and take care of the ones who care for u !
amanda
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