Christmas season

Well Christmas has not been the same the last few years, I lost my pap then 24 hours later my mom ( this was 2 years ago already ) then the following year My husband lost his dad. so many changes just makes you sit back and look back on all the Christmas you have had and how they can change instantly. Charish the time you have for soon it will be a faint memory. I just had a hard time again this year getting into the spirit. Next year will be my year I think LOL. Then to top it off My husband sprained his ankle and was on crutches for the season. he wasnt able to go shopping with me ( yeah we are always last min ) but idk just didnt seem like the holidays. and my oldest son moved out and bought his own house. I was excited for him to get out and start a life of his own then realizing empty nest is really a thing. my youngest also started driving this year. so a ton of changes and I wasnt ready. where did the time go? I have people on youtube who still follow me and say wow I remember when Aspin was in diapers in videos. But time moves on I guess I need to learn to keep up ( and I am trying ) We dont have that much of family left but the little we do have did stop in and had a meal at my house. Kevin and his long time girlfriend, and jays mom and her new boyfried ( yeah that was another new thing we had to get use to ) so stepping into 2023 with the madness of the world and personal drama we all had Id like to just step back reflect, not forget but just step forward and start new. and I know how everyone starts a New Years resulution and never finishes it. and what is really New year just a nother day. but im going forward as a mindset. I have to to meet my goals and to clear my mind. My family may be moving out and starting their own life, but this is my time to take for myself and my personal goals. So this year I am going to go 100% into my blogs, and social sites. follow my journey and watch me grow! My husband got me a s8 Ultra Tablet, and a cricut for Christmas. I am going to be doing all kinds of craft videos and put all my extra time into that. its crazy when you look back and see I have done youtube videos for 14+ years, and with  the time I did take out for myself those years I just fell behind and it almost feels like I am starting over. But I just keep going Ill get there. My agerothym is all out of wack. But if I am conisitant hope it pulls through. and reguardless this is what I enjoy so always follow your passion. I hope everyone had a great Christmas and strong fresh start to the New Year! Do you have any goals or plans for this year?